Mother Joan of the Angels (1961)

Illustration for "Mother Joan of the Angels (1961)" by Christiana Drevets. The head of a woman is attached to the body of a red crow. Pink bloomers reach to the ankles of taloned feet. The woman has long brown hair. Around the creature's neck is a pink ruffle collar and a gold cross.
DEMON  
Why is a woman not born a bird?  
SISTER  
In the chapel, a sister is waiting  
to greet you.  
DEMON  
Her hands are not the hands of  
saints, they are bird claws.  
SISTER  
Yes, she is the only girl in the  
world who grew up to be an adult bird.  
DEMON  
When a group of women stands  
together, what is it that makes one of them  want to sing? arms wide-flapping 
and feet clapping stone? 
SISTER  
If only you'd look at the  
crowd which forms around you. 
We all wish to assure you of heaven.  
DEMON  
But all along, among people, my  
exhortation has only ever been:  
be as good as a bird, as happy as a bird.
SISTER  
A prayer isn’t a birdcall: it is a ringing  
bell, a poem landing 
on the ears of a cactus.  
DEMON  
Even still, 
a woman with a beast in her belly  
must always be hungry.
SISTER  
And hungry we sing Hosanna  
when we rip from our prayer clothes.  Hosanna, we are birds underneath.  
Hands climbing in prayer with wing  
as if made of it.  
DEMON  
No woman, even if she tried her  
whole life, could ever sound  
as beautiful as a bird can.  
SISTER  
Two women can come close.  
DEMON  
Even still, 
the pigs in the churchyard   
wait for you.  
SISTER  
It is true that the gospels say the  
demons begged Jesus: “Send us among the pigs;  allow us to go into them.”  
DEMON  
You know if you ask an evil  
to leave,  
something worse may take its place.
SISTER  
If even one woman who lives after me  
finds honest love,  
then all of this is worth it.  
DEMON  
Your heart will not be the castle you  
wanted and prayed for.  
SISTER  
As long as I hear my sisters  
singing, any place can be my castle.
. . .  
Oh, but I will miss them.  
My heart is drawn to them now as a refuge,  as the bright bird that sings back.

DEMON  

Why is a woman not born a bird?  

SISTER  

In the chapel, a sister is waiting  

to greet you.  

DEMON  

Her hands are not the hands of  

saints, they are bird claws.  

SISTER  

Yes, she is the only girl in the  

world who grew up to be an adult bird.  

DEMON  

When a group of women stands  

together, what is it that makes one of them  want to sing? arms wide-flapping 

and feet clapping stone? 

SISTER  

If only you’d look at the  

crowd which forms around you. 

We all wish to assure you of heaven.  

DEMON  

But all along, among people, my  

exhortation has only ever been:  

be as good as a bird, as happy as a bird.  

SISTER  

A prayer isn’t a birdcall: it is a ringing  

bell, a poem landing 

on the ears of a cactus.  

DEMON  

Even still, 

a woman with a beast in her belly  

must always be hungry. 

 

SISTER  

And hungry we sing Hosanna  

when we rip from our prayer clothes.  Hosanna, we are birds underneath.  

Hands climbing in prayer with wing  

as if made of it.  

DEMON  

No woman, even if she tried her  

whole life, could ever sound  

as beautiful as a bird can.  

SISTER  

Two women can come close.  

DEMON  

Even still, 

the pigs in the churchyard   

wait for you.  

SISTER  

It is true that the gospels say the  

demons begged Jesus: “Send us among the pigs;  allow us to go into them.”  

DEMON  

You know if you ask an evil  

to leave,  

something worse may take its place.  

SISTER  

If even one woman who lives after me  

finds honest love,  

then all of this is worth it.  

DEMON  

Your heart will not be the castle you  

wanted and prayed for.  

SISTER  

As long as I hear my sisters  

singing, any place can be my castle. 

 

. . .  

Oh, but I will miss them.  

My heart is drawn to them now as a refuge,  as the bright bird that sings back.

Christiana Drevets is a poet living in Queens, New York. She is interested in writing about horror, dreams, and other mysteries. Her work can be found in Quarto Magazine, Inverted Syntax, Sortes, The Red Ogre Review, and on Poets.org.