Mother Joan of the Angels (1961)





DEMON
Why is a woman not born a bird?
SISTER
In the chapel, a sister is waiting
to greet you.
DEMON
Her hands are not the hands of
saints, they are bird claws.
SISTER
Yes, she is the only girl in the
world who grew up to be an adult bird.
DEMON
When a group of women stands
together, what is it that makes one of them want to sing? arms wide-flapping
and feet clapping stone?
SISTER
If only you’d look at the
crowd which forms around you.
We all wish to assure you of heaven.
DEMON
But all along, among people, my
exhortation has only ever been:
be as good as a bird, as happy as a bird.
SISTER
A prayer isn’t a birdcall: it is a ringing
bell, a poem landing
on the ears of a cactus.
DEMON
Even still,
a woman with a beast in her belly
must always be hungry.
SISTER
And hungry we sing Hosanna
when we rip from our prayer clothes. Hosanna, we are birds underneath.
Hands climbing in prayer with wing
as if made of it.
DEMON
No woman, even if she tried her
whole life, could ever sound
as beautiful as a bird can.
SISTER
Two women can come close.
DEMON
Even still,
the pigs in the churchyard
wait for you.
SISTER
It is true that the gospels say the
demons begged Jesus: “Send us among the pigs; allow us to go into them.”
DEMON
You know if you ask an evil
to leave,
something worse may take its place.
SISTER
If even one woman who lives after me
finds honest love,
then all of this is worth it.
DEMON
Your heart will not be the castle you
wanted and prayed for.
SISTER
As long as I hear my sisters
singing, any place can be my castle.
. . .
Oh, but I will miss them.
My heart is drawn to them now as a refuge, as the bright bird that sings back.
Christiana Drevets is a poet living in Queens, New York. She is interested in writing about horror, dreams, and other mysteries. Her work can be found in Quarto Magazine, Inverted Syntax, Sortes, The Red Ogre Review, and on Poets.org.