I, Unfastened

Illustration for "I, Unfastened" by Joni Thomas. Two aluminum cans. They are blue and white striped (vertical). The label on each can is of a tomato with a face. The tomato faces face each other in profile.
Ceiling melts. Cinnamon sticks leg themselves across the floor. My knees 
remember wet gravel and a flipped bike.
A crow blinks sideways at the Kroger. Its eye tastes like pennies. I smell smoke 
in the gutter. $135 to continue to feel like myself.
Tin cans hold old conversations. I press one to my ear. Nothing replies.
A leaf folds itself into my palm, whispers angles of something I almost know. 
My fingers dissolve
and the sun leaks sideways. Shadows bite bricks. I taste the air: rust, sweet 
hair, forgotten voices;
I chew dust from a pickup, swallow wind from the steeple across the road. The 
broken cry back, everywhere; nowhere.
The girl I was tumbles into origami. She reeks of old syrup and ash. 
The sky bends. Shadows leak. Footsteps vanish. I pick them up, carry them in 
a fistful of cloud.
As the doors breathe, I slide between them. My hair wet, my hands water, my 
tongue cement.
A bell rings inside a puddle. I dip my wrist, and the puddle opens like memory.
I move. The air moves around me. My shadow moves against me. A crow folds 
my hat into a sail. I sail anyway.
I fold myself into the street corner. My ribs hum. The world leans. The girl 
laughs—or coughs. I cannot tell.

Ceiling melts. Cinnamon sticks leg themselves across the floor. My knees 

remember wet gravel and a flipped bike.

A crow blinks sideways at the Kroger. Its eye tastes like pennies. I smell smoke 

in the gutter. $135 to continue to feel like myself.

Tin cans hold old conversations. I press one to my ear. Nothing replies.

A leaf folds itself into my palm, whispers angles of something I almost know. 

My fingers dissolve

and the sun leaks sideways. Shadows bite bricks. I taste the air: rust, sweet 

hair, forgotten voices;

I chew dust from a pickup, swallow wind from the steeple across the road. The 

broken cry back, everywhere; nowhere.

The girl I was tumbles into origami. She reeks of old syrup and ash. 

The sky bends. Shadows leak. Footsteps vanish. I pick them up, carry them in 

a fistful of cloud.

As the doors breathe, I slide between them. My hair wet, my hands water, my 

tongue cement.

A bell rings inside a puddle. I dip my wrist, and the puddle opens like memory.

I move. The air moves around me. My shadow moves against me. A crow folds 

my hat into a sail. I sail anyway.

I fold myself into the street corner. My ribs hum. The world leans. The girl 

laughs—or coughs. I cannot tell.

Joni Thomas is a poet and photographer based in Richmond, Virginia. Her work has appeared in Transfix Magazine, ANARKISS, fifth wheel press, and The B’K, exploring themes of transness, roots, and reclamation. Through both poetry and photography, she traces the intersections of identity and memory.